Archive for May, 2010


Marriage- quickly approaching the point of no return.

If it’s not there already.

Too many lies, too little trust left, with no chance of getting it back in sight. Holding onto the memory of how much I loved this person, but it’s not enough to keep the anger under control. Anger over the fact that our entire marriage has been nothing but one lie after another.

So I say to myself, I still love him. But the truth of the matter is, I don’t know who the hell this guy is. This isn’t the man I exchanged vows with.

That man? He never existed.


DH got laid off.

Panic panic spaz worry fret freak the fuck out.

His job had cut hours in an attempt to preserve jobs. They’ve been waiting on a job to open up. He’s a glazier, which means he does the glass installation/repair side of construction. Unfortunately, their jobs are dependant on other construction… you can’t put the glass in until the other guys are done with the hammers, for obvious reasons.

The job still hasn’t become available.

We were going to ride it out with partial unemployment, but we weren’t expecting this. Not by any means. The company he works for started (as a hardware store) over a hundred years ago. It’s a fixture. That doesn’t stop it from going under in this economy.

So now we panic. Unemployment takes a while to come through, and it won’t meet our bills. His boss has told him if the job (ever) opens up, they’re going to rehire him. However, I’m quite aware this is it for that company. How many companies made more money by letting go of 75% of their work force?

On top of that, I’m angry. They have an incompetent office staff, and their manager was forced into partial retirement. This guy took the most insane, out-of-the-way jobs, but he had reasons. Profit is profit, and you need every dollar when things are bad, not just a certain percentage of profit. Besides, who gets good word-of-mouth by rejecting jobs? They had steady, even too much work when he ran things. He was cut back to part time because another employee had been promised his job after he retired. This guy is like 80. So the newbie got impatient and the old guy gets cut out.

Congratulations, Glass Company X. Your newbie ran you into the ground.

I have a theory: when times are tough, rely on the people who know what they’re doing. This company has weathered over a dozen recession, probably half of which were under this guy’s watch. If you survived the Great Depression, then use that to survive the Great Recession.

Maybe I’m reading too much into the situation, but when a change in management correlates with a downward spiral in profits, from doing well to bankrupt, then your new guy might not be cut out for the job.

In the meantime, I fill out more applications and wait. And pray.